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Princess Eco - refined by Dangerman-1973

I don't want to be mean but you've done better. Way better. The execution of the drawing isn't technically bad, it's just that in terms...

Pulsar Time Travel Strip by Dangerman-1973

It may be just me, but I always thought that giving Superman a time travel ability in the movie was a mistake. Being able to time trave...

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Getting better, somewhat.

Thu Oct 16, 2014, 3:46 AM



It has been 6 months now.

Technically I am still considered depressed by my therapist, but I am still better than I used to. I am starting to be able to draw again, even though I am still really far from the speed and willpower I used to have. It's not what we would hope for, but still good news.

I think it is a good time to change the message I had put there.
Even though things will never be exactly like before, I don't think I have to keep the long message and strict "rule set" I had decided for myself anymore.

You might actually get drawings soon.
In order to try to put myself back on track (at least on the "will to draw" part), I decided to do the meme of drawing my favorite characters. I felt like if I reminded myself of why I like art/manga/storytelling so much it would help me. Verdict? It kinda did.

It took me ages to do those drawings (not because they are complicated, but because of my state).
...so I am sorry to say that I intend to milk them for all their worth : I'll update the meme everyday during 10 days, adding a character each time. I think I'll also put a flash slideshow version with excruciatingly long texts explaining why those characters are my all-time favorite.

When will I do that? When it's ready. I won't rush anything (and I can't anyway).

After this, I have no idea what I'll do, either with this page or in general.

What I know is that I can no longer share complex things like the Longcat game as I used to.
As much as I'd love to live as a Smurf, I can't, for as long my baker and grocery store are not Smurfs themselves, I need money to survive.

The most logical thing is probably to go back to Serina, but I still have trouble getting my mojo back with that.

Also, when I look at the wasted Adobe Flash ressources I have created, I kind of wonder what I should do with them as well.
The experience of Longcat actually ended up being pretty traumatic for me (seeing so much work being rewarded with very little quite destroyed my self-confidence and trust in having a "place in the world"), but on the other hand, I also feel like I am throwing away potential. So should I make a new game, but this time actually sell it? I am wondering about that too.

In the end, I am still at a crossroads and I haven't decided yet in which direction I'll go.
I may ask some tips to you guys but I also learned from my past that the Internet can be a very bad source of advice, so I don't know yet if I'll actually follow your opinions.

The only thing I can say for sure is that this page will never been used as it used to years ago.

But hey, now at least I'll use it again. Somewhat.

Best wishes of luck and courage to everyone.

Hyakk



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The Bloodstained Mirror by HyaKkiDouR4n BM - Ciel's Angel Form by HyaKkiDouR4n BM - Dancing in the sky by HyaKkiDouR4n BM - 3 friends by HyaKkiDouR4n Elven Sharpshooter v.2 by HyaKkiDouR4n Codename : Black Nova by HyaKkiDouR4n Est-ce donc cela...le Mariage? by HyaKkiDouR4n Lutecia - Goddess of Light by HyaKkiDouR4n Lilith - Goddess of Darkness by HyaKkiDouR4n Illis - Goddess of the winds by HyaKkiDouR4n Eiin - Goddess of Ice by HyaKkiDouR4n Faera - Goddess of Fire by HyaKkiDouR4n Arquatia - Goddess of Water by HyaKkiDouR4n Gaelle - Goddess of the Earth by HyaKkiDouR4n Desire - Goddess of Love by HyaKkiDouR4n A japanese spring by HyaKkiDouR4n Victory girl - Flight by HyaKkiDouR4n



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Stop fandom abuse - Naruto by HyaKkiDouR4nWings maniac stamp by HyaKkiDouR4nShut Up You're Not Japanese by sambeesH-game style lover stamp by HyaKkiDouR4nAh my goddess stamp oo1 by Kaze-yoBoobies stamp by Funeral-Of-Joy.:I forget shit.: by Da-DingoSupport Creativity by Putri-984Aquanox fan stamp by HyaKkiDouR4nNational Sarcasm Society by jolaedanainsane stamp by Aggrotard



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Otaku Snob
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<In this Space, insert description of pretty much any nerdy computer/video game addict who discovered a passion for drawing in his late teens thanks to anime>
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Hello/Bonjour/Konnichiha!

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English:
Hey guys, welcome to my page!
As you probably guess, I am an amateur anime artist. I take some commissions once in a while for professionnals, but it usually doesn't end up here.
I know my art isn't the greatest around, but hopefully you'll find some of it interesting. :)

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Français:
Salut à toi, internaute. Tu peux m'appeller Hyakkidouran, ou même Hyakk, et comme tu as dû remarquer, je dessine des mangas. Surtout pour le fun, occasionellement pour un petit boulot ponctuel d'illustration.
Ce blog est essentiellement écrit en anglais, mais je suis francais alors n'hésite pas à laisser un message! :)

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日本語:
こんにちは!
私 は 漫画 や イラスト を 描く フランス人 の アマ です。 インタネト で "百鬼同乱" (hyakkidouran) の 名前 を 使ています。
私 の 日本語 は 完璧 じゃない けど、私 の ページ に コメント を したい なら、 どうぞ。一生懸命 返事 する つもり です。
よろしく お願い します ね。 

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:iconw15nu91:
w15nu91 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thabks for faving :D
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:iconmyname1z4xs:
myname1z4xs Featured By Owner May 11, 2014
I don't know what happened, its kind pity to see you leave. It is DA's loss because you are one of the content provider for its official purpose. How about just log out for a year and leave your gallery running, because there are many who enjoy your art.
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:iconaclockworkkitten:
AClockworkKitten Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I could tell you.
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:iconhyakkidour4n:
HyaKkiDouR4n Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am actually considering that idea.
With no login for a time I realized how removing this responsibility made me feel better, though.

If I keep the page opened, the problem would be to communicate to people visiting the deviations : they have to know that I will not answer anything...

Or maybe I should disable comments entirely until I return?
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:iconmyname1z4xs:
myname1z4xs Featured By Owner May 29, 2014
You should just leave it, if you do strange things, people will think its drama.
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:iconakizz:
akizz Featured By Owner May 8, 2014
Good luck in your future endeavor. :brofist: 
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:iconhyakkidour4n:
HyaKkiDouR4n Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks, but sadly my problem right now is pretty much that I am incapable of any endeavor.

Hopefully "future" is the keyword and I can find some will to work again someday.
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FrostyFennec Featured By Owner May 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I  uh... love your art~
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:iconhyakkidour4n:
HyaKkiDouR4n Featured By Owner May 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks.
Don't hesitate to leave comments for individual pictures if you feel like it.
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myname1z4xs Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014
Do you think the latest Precure was kind disappoint?
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